The Doctor's Visit

Monday, June 22, 2009 was the date of Katie's first "female" doctor's appointment. Both of us were dreading the day. I was dreading the day so much, I begged my sister to take my place. Of course, she said "no way" and she was right. Katie had a 9:00 a.m. doctor's appointment and I did get John to come with us (for my moral support). After waiting in the lobby for only a few minutes, they called Katie in. I told Katie to go in by herself, get weighed, etc. and if she really needed me, to just ask them to get me. Of course, I was hoping that she would NOT really need me. I don't remember having my mother with me when I was being examined!!! As luck would have it, she asked for me and I had to go into the little room. Walking to the examination room was like walking into the dentist knowing you are going to have a root canal. You can't get out of it and you KNOW it is going to be awful!!!!!!!

Our appointment was with the PA and she was very patient and explained to Katie everything that was going to happen. She showed us all of the equipment and explained that all female parts look the same. It was very informative and to tell you the truth, I learned a lot. After much urging, Katie agreed to let this procedure take place. Then the PA pulled out the stirrups and Katie decided "NO WAY". After much convincing, much yelling, even some crying the examination was over. The poor PA practically ran out of the room!!!

While John was driving us home and asking why I looked so pale and was so quiet, I informed him that Katie had "lost her mind" in the doctor's office. At that, Katie comes to the conclusion that she "might have overreacted just a bit". Who would have thought it!!!!!!????????

Just today, I said to my sister that it will be amazing if I live through all of this and she agreed. As my mother has said a million times, raising children is the hardest thing you will ever do.

Wish me luck that I get through it!!!

Lets Just All Get Along!!!

Just found out that Katie will be moving home. There are so many different feelings associated with this. When Katie is happy, she is really happy but when Katie is unhappy, she is very unhappy! I hope and pray that six weeks has been enough time for all of us to have licked our wounds and now we can go on as a loving family!

I have heard for so many years that raising teens is very hard. I never believed that it would be this hard. I love my girls more than anything or anyone in the entire world. I love my girls more than I ever imagined. When one of them is hurting, I am hurting!!! I realize that all parents feel this way!

Wish that I had a crystal ball and could see that this will all work out. I have been told that one day everything will be fine. Lets hope that "one day" is now. I have told myself through most of this past six weeks that things will work out in God's timing and I just needed to go with the flow and let Him take care of it. I have no doubt that the Lord is watching out for us and this is just another step. Without my faith in Him, I would have definately fallen a part a long time ago!!!!

I appreciate that Beth and Sean let Katie stay with them for the past six weeks. I know that it was a sacrifice and it is a testimony to their love for her and for us. I am sure that Katie has learned alot from Beth and Sean and I also have no doubt that both Beth and Sean have learned a lot from Katie. Maybe these past six weeks will be a time that we all look back on and talk about for years to come.

I have the best family and friends in the world!!!!! Thanks for all being here for me!!!

Humility and Pride

I am sitting at work this morning - over an hour early and I get an e-mail from one of the attorneys here. He is young and looks like Gomer Pyle. He is in essence a real dork. He is asking me to do something "first thing this morning". My first reaction is WHY IS HE ASKING ME TO DO SOMETHING FOR HIM? WHY CAN'T HE GET OFF OF HIS "YOU KNOW WHAT" AND DO IT HIMSELF? DOES HE KNOW WHAT TIME I AM SUPPOSED TO START WORK? This attitude of mine is what gets me thinking, what kind of person am I really!!!! If I were a good person, I would just do what he needs and forget about it. Instead, I sit here at my desk, steam, and think that he has NO RIGHT to ask me to do anything for him.

Yep - The truth is - I am wrong. He has every right to ask someone for help when he needs it. I am no better than he is! I am realizing every day that I have real issues with humility and pride. Just another thing that I need to work on. Oh, well - I'll add it to the list. One day, hopefully, the list will get shorter.

Another of life's little lessons.

The booger fish

We have a 50 something gallon fish tank in our bedroom. The fish come and go and sometimes I get attached to them - (Yes - to a fish). Well, our tank had turned into a tank of four fish. Two catfish that John had purchased to eat all of the crud off of the bottom of the tank, (catfish can get big. When we purchased them, they were tiny and they grew big and fast); an algae eater to clean the tank and my little booger fish.

Friday night after playing pool with my family until 1:00 a.m. I come home to find that my little booger fish is no where to be found. Upon closer examination, I find the tail of the little booger fish sticking out of the one of the catfishes' mouth. HOW GROSS!!!! DISGUSTING!!!! At 1:00 in the morning, all I could do was turn off the light of the fishtank and go to bed hoping that I could forget all about the situation. Life can't be that easy, I awaken Saturday morning, jump out of bed, turn on the light in the fish tank and what do I see????? The same exact situation, poor booger fish has gotten stuck in the catfishes mouth. As soon as John got up - he, being my most wonderful husband and not wanting to listen to me complain anymore - picked up the catfish and got the fish out of its mouth (I think plyers were used). Now the canal in the back of our property has three more fish (2 catfish and an algae eater). The fish tank has been cleaned out - no fish whatsoever- and I will make sure I talk to someone that knows about fish before putting anything else in the tank. Poor booger fish!!!!! John says that it is the circle of life - I say it is disgusting.

Another one of life's little moments!!!